A letter to my son on the eve of his second birthday

Dear darling boy,
Two years it has been since you came out into the world and what an adventure it has been! I am writing this sitting on my bed while you are in your cot, supposed to be napping, but instead you are singing softly to yourself. This is very typical of your little character, you move quietly and steadily through a world full of noise and confusion. You stay close to your mama always and you have a gentle, loving nature. This gentle and loving nature is not to be mistaken for weakness, as you also have a firm idea about what you want and never waver once its set in your mind. You are cheeky and hilarious only this morning displaying antics to make your father and I laugh declaring "funny" over and over, because you know when you are and love to make us laugh.

You love Playschool and TV, although I try hard not to let you watch too much of this, you love showers and baths, Narnies (Bananas), Kookabuwas (Kookaburra), Buttflys (Butterflys), Gumboots, the park and swings, Library, shops, dogs, bubbles and walks but the thing you are most obsessed with at the moment is books. You are a little fledgling bookworm and have started to "read" on your own and will even push mummy off the couch in order to get some space to read in peace.

Your kisses are the best even the really sloppy ones with lots of tongue, and hearing you declare "cuddles, cuddles" over and over again throughout the day never gets old, even when those "cuddles" are really just a way to get something you want or to get out of something you don't want to do.

You have started to say full sentences, the latest ones; "It's bootiful day," "go for a walk," "daddy at work," "look at clouds," "lie down" or "read the book" and I adore watching your language grow. Some quotes include; "licious" (delicious), "stinky bottom," when its nappy change time, "yuck," "pwease" the list goes on.  

Your father and I adore you and will do anything to keep you safe and support you to become the man you deserve to be. I know one day the sloppy kisses will end and the demands for cuddles will fade away and the funny way you say things will also stop, so I try my hardest to be present for every single moment. This is hard in the busy life we lead but you are forever in my heart no matter what.  Watching you grow is so very bitter sweet but overall I feel a deep sense of gratitude for being chosen to be you mummy. Out of all the things I have done and the titles that come with them, wife, yogi, daughter, sister and soon to be health coach, Mummy is the most sacred if them all.

So thank you my darling one for coming into our lives, for bringing us endless amounts of joy, for the uncanny ability to make everything that doesn't really matter fade into the background, for teaching me what living in the moment is really about and most importantly showing me what unconditional love, compassion and empathy really feel like.

Love you,

From your one and only,
Mummy xx

IIN Module One, The Journey begins

I started my new course today at the Institute for Integrative Nutrition. This is the largest nutrition school in the world. It is ahead of the game in many ways and will be the place I learn to become a health and wellness coach. I will be empowered to change peoples lives for the better. We began the course by setting our intentions and using some key words here was the post I replied with in the discussion forum:

My intention first and foremost is to change peoples lives. I see myself sitting down one on one with clients and connecting with them on a heart level and healing not only with advice and guidance on diet but also healing through love and compassion. I want to be a woman of influence who's ripple effect reaches far and wide. I also want to teach others to find the still place within us all which is so overlooked and undervalued. I want to teach others to slow down, take in the beauty of the world surrounding them and connect with the moment. I want to teach others to just be. I want them to come to the deep realisation that they are perfect just the way they are that nothing needs to be added it is all within them right now. My intention is to work with clients being referred to me from my husbands chiropractic clinic but also from the wider community. I also want to give regular talks and workshops that reach more people. I also want to run a successful website and blog as writing gives me an incredible sense of peace and well being. This blog and website will reach even more people and the world will change for the better. I can't go wrong on this journey because anything that betters myself and humankind will be rewarded and abundance in every sense of the word will flow.

My words are: Inspire, teach, love, compassion, empathy, inner peace, joy, vitality, present moment, abundance and freedom.  

Sounds pretty amazing to me! I will blog regularly on this journey I have embarked upon. I hope that it will be a life changing experience for me and the world.

Blessings,
L x

Run as fast as you can

Over the last 6 months or so I have started to include running in my exercise routine and it has taught me so much. I don't run huge distances or particularly fast, I'm not interested in running in competition against anyone apart from myself, but it has always been a goal for me to be able to do it, and now I do the rewards are incredible. So here is a list of some of the benefits I have received;

1. Its a microcosm for life. No matter the distance I end up doing there are always points where it feels really challenging (particularly the last 500m!) and running teaches me strength to get through these points. So like life we all have hard days, weeks, months and years and running has taught me to push through this pain. Its like a little sample of all the ups and downs in life. The pain from running for a while and then the elation when you achieve your goal and the pride at seeing what you are capable of. If you can do it in your running session you can carry that attitude into your everyday life.

2. Fitness and strength, this is an obvious one but worth noting!

3. I have epiphanies! Ideas, inspiring thoughts all seem to flow when I'm running.

4. Its another form of meditation. You have no choice when it gets tough to keep concentrating on your breath, or the thought in your head going over and over about how you can do it (mantra). So its a great way to meditate and exercise at the same time! Win win!

5. No matter where you are at in your fitness you can always challenge yourself more. The options are endless but also if you're only just starting out and just do short runs you will feel just as good as if you are experienced and do a longer run. The main thing to remember is not to compare yourself with others, keep it in the forefront of you mind that this is just for you.

6. Finally you feel great afterwards. The endorphins are pumping and your sense of growth and pride is amazing! So get running what have you got to lose.

Love to all
L xx


  

Turning 30

Recently I turned the big three O, this prompted me to reflect on my life and where I am at right now. For the first birthday that I can remember, I felt content and at peace. Turning 30 was fabulous.

I didn't feel this way due to running around achieving a whole lot over the last year, in fact in the months leading up to my birthday I hadn't done a whole lot of achieving in general due to a whole lot of movement and many challenges faced. I felt this way because I have taught myself that where we are at right now is perfect. In our world we spend a large part of our lives striving and achieving and fighting. We are told that to sit still means death, to stop 'doing' signifies that our lives are meaningless. We are told that if we don't reach certain goals by certain times in our lives than there is something wrong.  I challenge this line of thinking because I think there is a time and place to just be. In fact I not only think there is a time and a place for being still I believe it is a necessity.

I'm not saying sit around all day doing nothing but I do believe we are desperately in need of a shift in consciousness. I see so many people who are burnt out, people who are beating themselves up because they haven't done enough with their lives. People who are constantly running on adrenaline and not taking the time to actually just be in the moment. The moment is all we have and if we aren't paying attention to it then we are living our lives in a place that doesn't exist. Just think about it for a second the past and the future aren't actually a real thing, they are given power by our minds. We think and obsess about where we want to be or where we have been but there is not such thing. Again I'm not saying don't make any plans at all, go ahead make plans, dream dreams but don't become so attached to these plans that you forget about where you are now, that you forget that you are a unique expression of perfect humaness that cannot be replicated. That you don't actually need to do anything at all, as you are exactly where you need to be right now.

The funny thing is I am guilty of all the things I have mentioned above. I used to be so future obsessed that I would become anxious when things weren't happening straight away, exactly how I wanted them to be. I had to painstakingly retrain myself to let go of this train of thought. I had to teach myself slowly to let go and let god so to speak. I have trained myself to always come back to the thought that everything happens for a reason and there is a plan already laid out for me I just need to trust. This has been immensely helpful and has gotten me to a much happier place. It is of course an ongoing lesson and something I need to remind myself of all the time.

The first restorative yoga class I ever went to changed my world. All of a sudden I was doing a class where we actually didn't really 'do' anything. All of the poses were designed to get you into a place of deep relaxation and allow you to let go. It wasn't a work out, I didn't have to strive or achieve or do things to shape my body differently. I didn't even have to try to do anything I just had to be, be in my body, be one with my breath and be in a profound place of stillness. I finally found a physical expression of just being. So this is my mission now, to teach others that they don't have to constantly be fighting and driving towards success. That along their path they can just sit still for a while and listen to who they are inside and marvel at the beauty of it all. That is what I want for all humankind and what I will always strive towards.

Yours in stillness
Namaste
L xox 

A prayer from The Dalai Lama

May I become at all times, both now and forever

A protector for those without protection

A guide for those who have lost their way

A ship for those with oceans to cross

A bridge for those with rivers to cross

A sanctuary for those in danger

A lamp for those without light

A place of refuge for those who lack shelter

And a servant to all in need.

YES YES YES!!!

This quote truly resonates with me and puts what I believe to be spirituality in such eloquent words:

"This, then, is my true religion, my simple faith. In this sense, there is no need for temple or church, for mosque or synagogue, no need for complicated philosophy, doctrine, or dogma. Our own heart, our own mind, is the temple. The doctrine is compassion. Love for others and respect for their rights and dignity, no matter who or what they are: ultimately these are all we need. So long as we practice these in our daily lives, then no matter if we are learned or unlearned, whether we believe in Buddha or God, or follow some other religion or none at all, as long as we have compassion for others and conduct ourselves with restraint out of a sense of responsibility, there is no doubt we will be happy."

Said by His Holiness The Dalai Lama 

x

Dedicated to my budding yogi's!

So after almost 2 months off writing I am feeling the urge to get back into it so here goes!

This post is dedicated to the wonderful women who have blessed me and humbled me by trusting me enough to open their hearts and minds by joining my class!

We are 6 weeks in with 4 weeks to go (and a special charity add on as an eleventh class but more on that another time!) and I have learnt so much. I have put my girls through their paces, some of the things we have covered are: Meditation using all different techniques, chakra healing, chanting, intuitive readings using tarot and oracle cards, self love exercises, gratitude journalling, restorative yoga and last but not least sharing our challenges and lessons with each other every week. They have opened up to each other and I can only watch in amazement at the love and support that is shown every week.

Reflecting on this list I realise that I have really put them through their paces but they have met all of this with grace and fearlessness. Most of my women are beginners and to go with all that has been presented to them without resistance shows immense bravery and growth. I couldn't be prouder. They just dove in not really knowing what they had gotten themselves in to and trusted me to guide. I feel so blessed and humbled that they chose me to be their teacher.

I have learnt so much. I have learnt that I am quite hard on myself, that I really don't need to deliver a full on life altering class every time and that in fact my attachment to this is actually getting in the way of me being in the flow and channelling the messages I want to pass on. I am a natural teacher, speaking in front of people about things that resonate with me deeply is something I am comfortable with and I feel I can communicate freely and clearly. I thought people would be a bit freaked out by chanting (turns out they love it) and I was ok with singing out loud in front of others. I have learnt that this is just the beginning and I can't wait to continue and teach more and more.

My hope for what my girls will get out of this class continues to be the same. That they will find that peaceful place within, even if it is just a glimpse and that this carries on into their lives creating positive change and growth for them. That it sparks the light within them so they carry on their journey of finding the sacred within. I also hope this for the greater good, so that there may be some more people out there who can add to the collective consciousness that is needed to bring the world to a higher level of love, joy and peace!!!

Love to you little yogi's, you know who you are xox

Even the bad times are good

I know, I know I bang on a lot about gratitude and how important it is but the lessons of gratitude just keep unfolding in my life and I just had to share my latest one.

So last night we went to a party for one of my oldest and closest girlfriends birthday. On our way home the babysitter sms'd us to let us know that Eddie had woken up and would not resettle. We got back to find him wide awake not even close to tired and bouncing off the walls.

My inner whingy pants and worry wart started up. What's wrong with him? Why is he awake this late? Is he teething? Is he having nightmares? Why is he so awake? Oh I am going to be so bloody exhausted in the morning. Why does this always seem to happen when I want to have some fun? So tired......... On and on it went.

As I lay in bed whilst my darling hubby was trying to settle the boy I had an epiphany. If being tired is my biggest problem then I am so dam lucky, if this is as hard as it gets well I am truly blessed. A wave of gratitude just washed over me and I felt so much happiness and love for the life that I am privileged to be living. I am tired because my son is healthy and happy and not because he is unwell. I am lying awake not because I have worries about where my next meal is going to come from or whether I can afford to buy my son nappies, or whether my house may get bombed tonight or not, I am lying awake with trivial worries of when my baby is finally going to fall asleep. And that my friends is exactly why my stressings are really blessings.

I had further confirmation of this thought today when having a lunch in the park when my friend said "even the bad times are good;" Even the bad times are good such a simple profound statement which tells us that we are privileged to be alive, we are blessed to be part of this crazy thing called life and yes it may not be ideal but it is still good.

So I ask again, take a moment to realise that even the things you complain about are actually a blessing. I'm not saying that you aren't human, of course you will still feel pain and suffering as this is as much a part of life as happiness and peace but if you can take a moment in the middle of that pain where you realise that you are actually very lucky it will dissipate very quickly as it did for me last night.

Love and blessings to all
L xox

My upcoming course!!

Finding the sacred within

10 week meditation and spirituality course

PEACE

it does not mean to be in a place where there is no noise, trouble or hard work

it means to be in the midst of those things and still be calm in your heart.

Author unknown

Starts 8th of October 2012

Where: Juma Yoga

9 Windmill St

Tarragindi

Time: 7:30-9pm Monday night

Cost: $180 for 10 week course or $20 casual rate

Contact: Lucy Slater

lucyslater11@gmail.com

or 0407 908 125

https://www.facebook.com/yogimama11

Been a while

Gosh I know its been quite some time since I have written and you will soon see why!

So here I go time to update you on my life!

The house:
So after a few months, NO offers (that's right not even one ridiculously low offer), a crazy roller coaster of emotions and some price drops we have taken the house off the market. Trying to sell the house was one of the most taxing things I have ever been through. For any readers out there who have small children and try to keep their house in some kind of a tidy state you will know what I am talking about. However fighting the up hill battle with a toddler to keep the house clean was only part of why this was so challenging. 

It was one crazy learning curve about practicing non attachment. I was actively trying to let go of this house as well as the expectation to sell as being attached to any outcome what so ever just caused me too much pain. The build up to the open home on a Saturday, the cleaning, the mental preparation and then the disappointment was exhausting. I learnt yet again that you can have plans for your life but they often don't turn out the way you envisage, the divine almost always has other ideas for us. I learnt yet again to continuously and actively let go.

I learnt about feeling gratitude for things that I previously thought of as a burden. Suddenly I started to see this house in a different light. I realised that if no one else wanted this place that I actually really did want it and that it is their loss and my gain that I get to stay here. The mortgage which previously felt like a curse I can now see is a blessing. I am extremely lucky that I can even gain access to this kind of money, to be allowed the privilege of having a place I can call mine, a feeling of security that I have never had before. To learn the lesson (albeit hard) that we can make it and pay this thing off and we are worthy of making a profit one day, just not now.

Me:
I continue to practice meditation and yoga and I am very proud of myself for keeping this up through chaotic times. In the past self care was generally the first thing that went out the window in times of stress, but this time I realised that in these times we actually need it the most so instead of letting it go I prioritised it. For this reason I believe I didn't fall into a dark hole like I may of in the past. I processed things much quicker and even though I experienced pain I felt it, acknowledged it, and let it go. Yay me!

I am also teaching a meditation and spirituality course starting on the 8th of October. My aim for this course is to help others find that quiet space within, to uncover the place in all of us that contains pure, unending amounts of joy, love and peace. I cannot wait to show others their own potential and I am honoured to have 3 people signed up already! We are going to learn so much about ourselves and bond as a group. It is such an exciting time for me.

So I have been busy but thriving and it feels damn good to be writing again. Missed you guys!

Love to all
L xx

On Marriage

You were born together, and together you shall be forevermore.
You shall be together when the white wings of death scatter your days.
Ay, you shall be together even in the silent memory of God.
But let there be spaces in your togetherness,
And let the winds of the heavens dance between you.


Love one another, but make not a bond of love:
Let it rather be a moving sea between the shores of your souls.
Fill each other's cup but drink not from one cup.
Give one another of your bread but eat not from the same loaf
Sing and dance together and be joyous, but let each one of you be alone,
Even as the strings of a lute are alone though they quiver with the same music.


Give your hearts, but not into each other's keeping.
For only the hand of Life can contain your hearts.
And stand together yet not too near together:
For the pillars of the temple stand apart,
And the oak tree and the cypress grow not in each other's shadow.

Kahlil Gibran

Quiet as a mouse

Gorgeous souls! I  just wanted to give you a quick update and let you know why I have been so quiet. We are in the process of selling our house as some of you already know and its really taking up my whole life in all three aspects, physically, mentally and spiritually. Keeping a house immaculate for open homes whilst you have a 14 month old is a challenge in itself. Then there is the feeling of having strangers trawling through your house picking it apart. Finally the underlying tension that resides in your belly from waiting for an outcome which effects your everyday life. 

I have to say it has also affected my relationship with C. We seem to be snapping at each other more and not really connecting as much as we usually would because there is a big fat pink elephant in the room. To say I'm tired is an understatement. It's nothing I can't handle but it is pushing me. 

I will probably stay pretty quiet until the house sells. It feels right now like there is a lot of trapped energy which will finally be released when we sell and then my inspiration will flow again. I hope it happens sooner rather then later as I miss being in that head space. I really miss tuning in to my yogimama alter ego and letting the love flow but I never want to force that side of me as it needs to come from a place of purity. Hope all is well in everyone's world. 

This week

Things that have inspired me this week:

Yoga session where I had many realisations, including the understanding of how can I ask my students to practice non violence when I am not practicing it myself? and the realisation that I am a completely different person now on the mat to what I was pre baby. I am not as strong physically but my metal state is so much healthier. I feel like I am now 'getting' it more often and that my practice previously was more ego based then I realised at the time. I also realised that I will never be obsessed with the physical form of yoga while I love how it makes me feel and know that it is critical for my wellbeing I will always be into the higher forms of yoga such as self inquiry, growth and the path to enlightenment.  

As always watching my boy grow and change. Particularly all the walking he is now doing. My heart swells with pride when I see my darling walking around and when he falls picking himself back up again and starting all over. New words that he masters as well fill me with joy. Lately his favourites are 'Daddy' and 'Bye Bye.'

Meditation practice. Getting back into it has been wonderful. I am realising after a long break that I am just happier when I have a regular practice. My moods are regulated and I am more likely to experience love, joy and peace. 

Friends; been getting back into a social life and truly enjoying the warmth and connection I feel from those in my life. I have attracted these people into my life for a reason, they resonate with me on a soul level and it feels good to reconnect. Blossoming new friendships are also inspiring me as they change my take on things and give me an alternate view.   

Believing in what I say

The other day on a walk with a friend I referred to my spiritual practice and beliefs as drivel! Thankfully she pulled me up on it and told me its not. Later upon reflection of this conversation I realised that I am self conscious of what I believe in. It seems a very different thing to sit passively in front of a computer screen typing up my learnings to saying them out loud. When I write things it is to an invisible audience, I don't really get much feedback except seeing the numbers of people reading my posts and the occasional comment so I feel much safer and able to reach out of my comfort zone. Certainly blogging has been an incredible stepping stone for me to start voicing what I believe in but the conversation the other day has indicated to me that I need to start believeing in myself some more and to be brave and take the plunge and say it out loud to a real human who can talk back to me in verbal and non verbal ways.

I have been mulling over why I feel self conscious and I think its because a lot of what I teach is left of field. I know it resonates with people from the feedback I have received but I also know it doesn't resonate with everyone and I guess I am scared of what others might think! This is a new feeling for me I am not usually one to hold back on my viewpoint, I am content most of the time to say you can love me or leave me but yogimama is different. Yogimama is not just a blog or a group of people, it is my heart, it is my soul and it reflects some of the deepest parts of my being. I am protective of it because it is fragile, there is a reason this stuff is deep and that is because i care about it a lot.

I do realise though that in order to take my teachings and self discovery to the next level i need to break out of the comfort zone, I need to be brave and shout out what I am passionate about to the world, I need to throw caution to the wind and leap. I need to be brave. Eep! So wish me luck fellow travellers and stay tuned for the next level. I hope you will join me. I will leave you with a Mark Twain quote which is very appropriate for this situation:

Kahil Gibran on children

Your children are not your children.
They are the sons and daughters of Life's longing for itself.
They come through you but not from you,
And though they are with you yet they belong not to you.

You may give them your love but not your thoughts,
For they have their own thoughts.
You may house their bodies but not their souls,
For their souls dwell in the house of tomorrow, which you cannot visit, not even in your dreams.
You may strive to be like them, but seek not to make them like you.
For life goes not backward nor tarries with yesterday.

You are the bows from which your children as living arrows are sent forth.
The archer sees the mark upon the path of the infinite, and He bends you with His might that His arrows may go swift and far.
Let our bending in the archer's hand be for gladness;
For even as He loves the arrow that flies, so He loves also the bow that is stable.

Kahlil Gibran (1883 - 1931)

Buddhist prayer

By the power and truth of this practice:
May all beings have happiness and the cause of happiness
May all beings be free from sorrow and the causes of sorrow
May all never be separated from the sacred happiness which is sorrow less
And may all live in equanimity with out too much attachment and too much aversion
And live believing in the equality of all that lives.

-The Tibetan Book of Living and Dying

My vision board

The vision board exercise was great fun, I felt so peaceful consolidating all my hopes, dreams and inspiration in one spot. There are two schools of thought when it comes to vision boards, you either put it somewhere obvious so you will look at it every day or you just get rid of it, release it into the hands of the gods. I was contemplating what to do with mine when of course the universe made the decision for me...................

I had left it out over night on our front verandah. That night while hubby and I were sleeping we were woken by a noise out the front of the house hubby said it was just a possum and we went back to sleep. The next day I went out to check my vision board and lo and behold the possum had weed on it!! I didn't know what to feel! I had poured my heart and soul into this thing and now an animal had peed on it. HA! About 5 minutes after this discovery I started to laugh about it I felt like it was a message to tell me not to take myself too seriously and also realised the decision had been made. Clearly the vision board needed to be released. I decided on a burning ceremony. Following are photos documenting it all! First one is the vision board complete with possum pee and then photos of it being burnt.

  


Love to you all
L xox 

Drained

Just a quick post to let everyone know why i have been so quiet. My little man has been sick and/or teething for two and a half weeks now and he's not really getting any better so I am utterly drained and honestly have nothing left in me to write!

One thing I am excited about is teaching yoga. Today I start my first one on one lesson with a very special woman in my life. I am honoured to be given the opportunity to teach another and can't wait to take this journey with her. Wish me luck and in the spirit of getting back into things........................

Namaste xox 

My top 5 values

So as you know I am completing the self care course and the past 3 days have been about our own unique set of values. It took me a bit of mulling over and thinking about but i finally narrowed it down to my top 5 which are:

1. Inner Peace
2. Gratitude
3. Intuition
4. Positivity
5. Contentment

The way we worked it out was to look at what we would like to work on the most in our lives. When I read this list it feels warm and fuzzy so I know I'm on the right path. Next up we are starting our personal vision board. I cannot wait for this exercise I have always wanted to do one. I have decided to do it old school on a pin board. Now to go and rustle up some images which inspire me. Pumped!

L xox

Guilt

Guilt seems to be coming up  lot in conversations I have had of late and it got me thinking. I believe I have touched on mother guilt before but it is not an emotion which solely effects mothers. My friend said to me when she feels guilty she feels like she will do anything to get away from it and indeed it is a very uncomfortable feeling. Unfortunately though it exists in our head so to run away from it is a pointless exercise as it will remain and all you have done is push it further within where it will fester and build and come out at a later time. Guilt is cumulative so when you don't acknowledge and clear it it continues to build up. Think of it like plaque build up on your teeth. You need to clean your teeth to remove plaque build up same goes for guilt build up in your mind.

I believe that guilt is a wasted emotion and wasted energy. Its like one of my favourite sayings: "not forgiving is like taking poison expecting the other person to die" just like not forgiving the only thing guilt is harming is yourself and how does that help? It is a negative feeling eating away at you and it really is not a positive experience. The only thing its kind of good for really is to learn something about yourself. It can be a great way to look inside yourself and figure out why you feel guilt about certain things. This way you turn the guilt into something constructive. If you can find the root cause of your guilt you will be able to cleanse yourself from it.

Why do we have so much guilt? Well I believe it is because we expect too much of ourselves. Which is why I think mothers in particular suffer from excessive amount of the guilts. We expect that we can, take care of our kids, keep our house immaculate, go to work to pay for the overpriced house, have a social life, sex life and look good all at the same time. When we don't fulfil all these expectations we feel guilty about something or someone missing out (including ourselves.)

This is also where perfectionism plays a role. Not only do we expect all these things of ourselves but we expect them to be done in a perfect way. Bloody hell I am actually tired just writing all of this down!

Drop the expectations and be kind to yourself. Know that you are doing the best you possibly can each and every moment of everyday and that is enough. You don't need to do anymore than that because just being here means you are special. Live your best life but know that if you mess up or have a bad day/week/month/year that is ok too. If this isn't enough to get rid of the guilt try this yoga pose out to clear that guilt build up.      

If this feels ok release your hands to make it slightly more challenging. To make it harder again slowly straighten your legs but keep your back straight! Every time you feel guilt practice this pose. Think of it as a tool you can call upon anytime to empower you to not feel guilty. 

Sending calm to you all

L xox